Whew. . .

So I've been working on this blog (not this current one, but another one) and well it was about how I am TOO BUSY, but I was too busy to finish it-sad but true. So here I am, weeks without a post because of my hectic crazy life. I could say that it is my own fault, that I procrastinated to get to this point, but truthfully this was all out of my control (ok, well most of it was).

The big lesson I was going to highlight in that blog post was that I've been so busy, that I am exhausted, and in all of the mad chaotic scramble to complete homework assignments, make it to work, help direct a VBS (which was only last week), and spend time with my friends (mainly for sanity's sake) I have been neglecting the most important thing in my life - - -Don't worry it wasn't showering--- It's God.

No wonder my life feels like it's spinning out of control.

This area of neglect also had serious implications during VBS. It gave Satan some footholds. . . not good when you are partially responsible for 100 pre-schoolers and their leaders, especially when it is your first time in a major leadership role.

I was fighting my thoughts all week. While I would drive I would try to meditate on Scripture. . . I never believed the importance of memorizing verses until a couple years ago when I was in a similarish situation. When God's word is hidden in your heart, it comes back to mind in those crucial moments and allow for mediation without holding a Bible (sidenote). . . I forced myself to think on God and who He is, what He does, and so forth. But I saw sides of people from my church that I did not like- attitudes that did not reflect Christ and sadly, I then had trouble making mine to reflect Him.

I was physically exhausted, mentally drained, and spiritually floundering.

At one point, on my drive from work to the church (one of the few times I had alone all day), I was re-thinking the actions and attitudes of the week and actually thought that I never wanted to serve again. Well, that lasted less than a second, for no sooner had the thought been thunk in my head did I begin another one- NO, I will serve again, Satan will not get the victory.

Yes, things did not go as I had anticipated but it was not a failure (yet). We had 100 pre-schoolers (I'll say it again!). Over 60 3-5 year olds! That's impressive, I don't care who you are, I mean, those are higher numbers than most churches expect for their whole program. God was working for sure. He brought us children to love and teach; He brought us families to minister to, and He gave us opportunities to serve Him. I'd say that is success.

However, IF I would have let the negatives build up and overwhelm me, which I'll admit at times they did, I would not have been able to see, appreciate, or rejoice in all that God was doing.

So yes, life gets busy. Yes, it gets hard. BUT it is never okay to focus on the problems without trying to solve them, and if the solution is out of your hands, well friend, look for what God is doing (that will be the positive